One year ago, a farewell

by | Feb 3, 2011 | Memoir, Musings, Relationships | 2 comments

We are not ready

By Laura McHale Holland

Little B wags his tail as we walk into the room. Rain pummels the pavement outside, but B is bathed in warm, incandescent light; sedated; feeling no pain. I move a few throw pillows aside so we can sit on the couch. The vet hands him to me. Our little dog at the end of his road.

He relaxes into my lap as tears roll down our faces. The vet explains what is about to happen, asks if we are ready. Our fingers are all over his white hair, massaging, patting. His fine hair recently clipped to perfection. We look into his round black eyes and bid him farewell: good-bye, Baby B, little doggie, best, best dog. good-bye, dear buddy; we love you; we’ve always loved you and we always will; good-bye. We murmur on until the sobs choke off our voices.

I nod to the vet to proceed. The poison flows, and our Little B is gone far too soon. We stay, my grown daughter and I, holding what is left of the tiny Maltese who has been part of our family for 13 years. We stay, suspended, as rain pounds the roof. We stay for a long time. We are not ready for this.

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2 Comments

  1. Deborah Taylor-French

    Oh, Laura.

    Yes, this is sad and written from your heart. What a sweet, loving dog B was. I loved looking at this photo, so much empathy and curiosity shines from B’s face. You have captured deep feeling.

    Thank you for sharing this.

    Deborah

  2. admin

    Thanks, Deborah, for the feedback. Yes, I was really feeling deep emotion when I wrote it. These little beings we get to care for mean so much to us.

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